After losing to the Atlanta Hawks on Sunday, April 4th, 2021 Steph Curry said, “You cannot play the way we played and expect things to change. We gotta make necessary adjustments. Losing sucks. Terrible feeling.”
Steph Curry is right. Losing sucks and it’s a terrible feeling.
Losing my job sucked. But losing my job helped me make necessary adjustments in my life. Instead of focusing on getting a new job or having a career, I turned my attention to God.
Walking Through The Desert
My official last day working was December 31st, 2020, but truthfully I lost my job before that day. I lost my job in August 2019 when they closed our New York office, and I knew it wouldn’t be long before they told me, “Will, we are letting you go.” Knowing that I could be let go at any day created more anxiety in my life and damn near making me paranoid. I always thought well today might be the day, the day when my dream ends.
Living in New York and working in digital marketing was my dream at the time. I moved to New York with a dollar and a dream. It was a dream fulfilled when I moved and got a job. I couldn’t praise God enough.
But as time went on my praise just became another motion and I started to focus more and more on work. I had a new goal in mind. I wanted to be the Director of Digital Marketing. So digital marketing was the only thing I would think and talk about. I only thought about how I could be better at SEO, and how I could get experience doing email marketing and social media. I probably wasn’t fun to be around at the time. I’m sorry.
The end of the year, 2019, came and I didn’t lose my job, instead I would stay on as a consultant and still do the same work. But if you ask me technically I didn’t have a job, but it was cool because I could still do what I loved.
The pandemic hit and chaos followed. There was no more Anthony or anyone I knew from New York left at the company, instead a merge happened and there was a new company. I definitely wasn’t safe. New company, new boss, new people, who all do the same thing I do, and they had more experience too.
This is around the time I made it my goal to read the bible from start to finish. And when the merger happened I thought of the new people as giants and here I am this small person who knows next to nothing but I try hard.
It was David versus Goliath in my mind. It was the Israelites scared to enter the promised land because they saw giants and knew they would be defeated in my mind. I wasn’t Joshua or Caleb. I was everyone else scared of what they saw. I had little faith.
I was expendable. An article in the Harvard Business Review said “On average, roughly 30% of employees are deemed redundant after a merger or acquisition in the same industry.”
So I always thought of myself as the odd man out and with people around the world losing their job due to the pandemic I knew I would be next.
It was then I knew I couldn’t focus on keeping my job because it was going to be out of my control. But I could focus on my relationship with Jesus. I heard a message from Joel Osteen, where he said “God didn’t bring you this far to leave you.” I read the bible with one goal in mind, where is God going to take me next because it wasn’t looking good.
Summer 2020 came and I started to feel closer to God. I was writing in my journal, reading the bible, and every morning before work, I started to go for worship walks because I was still standing. I still had a job. I knew it was looking bad but God was going to use it for his good. That was one of the first lessons I learned.
God uses all things for His good
The bible has taught me that even events that we classify as “bad” or “wrong” at the moment, God will use them for his good.
The story of Joseph. His brothers put him in a well and had plans to kill but instead sold him to the Egyptians to be a slave. He serves Potiphar and is put in charge of everything in his house but is thrown in jail because Potiphar’s wife says Joseph tried to have sexual relations with her.
While in prison the warden trusts Joseph because the lord was with Joseph causing the warden to choose Joseph to care for all the prisons.
Joseph has been thrown down two times! People have come against him. His brothers and then by a woman but each time the lord has picked him back up. Putting him in charge of Potiphar’s house and now making him care for the other prisoners.
In jail, Joseph interprets the dreams of two of the king’s officers and later interprets the dreams of the King. His interpretation of the King’s dream comes true and a great famine comes upon Egypt and the world but Egypt has enough food because of Joseph.
Joseph’s father tells his brothers to go to Egypt to get food, Joseph reveals who he is to his brothers and tells them to come live in Egypt.
His brothers ask for forgiveness because what they did was wrong and evil and Joseph forgives his brothers and tells them that even though they meant to hurt him, God used their evil for good and to save lives for many people.
I knew after reading Joseph’s story that God had a plan for me and if I stayed close to him I would be okay.
The Day of Reckoning
Eventually, I would be told that my services would no longer be needed. And sure enough, it did happen in December. But my attitude was different when I was told I wouldn’t have a job. I felt free. I jumped around my room thanking God because the anxiety I was feeling was gone. The paranoia was gone. I knew God had something better for me and it was time for me to go. I left with joy. I was at peace.
It’s been 90 plus days and I still don’t have a job but I know it’s coming. I know God can take away everything as he did to Job and still restore me in the end. He didn’t bring me this far to leave me.
No job but I have something more important than a job would give me. A deeper relationship with Jesus and a deeper understanding of who Jesus is. I thanked God because I was still standing with a job. But now I thank God because I’m still standing without a job. Not having a job isn’t going to destroy me.
I lost a job, but something way better in return. Because the truth is job loss is a season. Another job will come and another job will go but Jesus is still going to be there.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”